this feeling is so annoying. to be close with you and laughing around with you are something nice, but as lot as we contact, this annoying feeling become bigger, and i can do nothing, i only can hold this annoying feeling without can’t "blow" it up.
as hard as i hug you, this feeling become bigger, bigger and bigger
but i think i can’t make distance, it will strange
i don’t know,i am confuse
entire last week my mind can’t focus. u know what? there is a kind of group that claim they are represent of student from ‘paguyuban’. last week they came to pusgiwa and want to involve in make of policy of BOP. i think it quite strange, cause before we start to make policy we always keep touch to forma. therefore, we are formed by forma, forma is forum mahasiswa, in this forum all people that college in UI can join and give advice. so become strange if there were people that felt don’t join when we make policy.
this day i know that people is only want something that they can raise, that was we call existing. yeah, we talk about "politik kampus". so that people was driven by other group in order to they can still exist, so why that? cause they group was an ilegal.so in order they can feel exist by other person, they have to ‘make something’
ok enough talk about this thing. i only person that involve to the situation that actually i won’t to involve of. i join to BEM cause want to help people, the people who like me. but the in fact i got attack and got ‘fitnah’. at first that was made me so down. but know i am starting can forget that feeling.
i thrust beyond of all this, there something beautiful and awesome that Allah prepare for me. amin.
i am really confused know. there are lot problem in front of me that i don’t handle yet. i confused where i have to begin!!! and one of them was out my control, the only thing that i can do is waiting.
honestly, this made me sick !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am really confused know. there are lot problem in front of me that i don’t handle yet. i confused where i have to begin!!! and one of them was out my control, theonly thing that i can do is waiting.
honestly, this made sick
it has been long time from last post
OK it is about my world
my little world is consist of 3 parts. 1st is "must study". 2nd is organization. and the last one is teaching for some money. 1st and 2nd part are have blur line limit, because part one and two always overlapping each other, actually the 3rd part is also current happen like that, but there is not change yet.
what would happen if my little world added one other part?
it is relationship with girl.
for many reason, i worry it going to mess up my world.
but how if the girl is beautiful?
it appears some feeling like "lost" if my "too confident" feeling was right after this interaction.
i hope my feeling is wrong.
but all this up to Allah.
did u know what i mean?
last night i went home with my friend, we arrived at UI’s station about 9pm, and it was mean there isn’t any yellow bus.so, we were go to our home on foot.
at beginning our conversation, we talk about condition in UI’s forest at night, and it has been “public secret” that our forest when morning come really comfort to jogging. in fact, it really “comfort” too at night. and then i spoke to my friend about my track record in my career organisation.
and now i realize those my statement really selfish,, i recognize it today. today my friend that i really gift respect on his systematic thinking still haven’t gave me believeness.those condition was made worst with reallity that he was offered to in to BEM UI if the head of BEM UI have known that my friend graduate in 4 half year.
this is remind me that…anything i rise now isn’t only with my ability, i should not selfish or cocky, there are a lot people top of my ability
all i rise happen just because Allah will.
wake up, Wan !
in past, i spoke to my self that if i have had change to eliminate cigarette scholar from my university i will to do it, and now those opportunity has come.
my consideration are;
first, if cigarette company wanted to give support to student’s activity in my university, we always reject them, with consideration because cigarette not synchrony with spirit of teenage and we know cigarette has no advantage at all,especially to health. But this is become weird when they want to give their cash to student to spend for their academic needed, and we accept it. If we rejected their money because they want to put advertisement-based on argument on the top , it’s logic if we rejected too when they give scholar.
second, every year cigarette company always claiming surplus in billion, a few of this money they spend to give for academic institution as scholarship. they want to built public vision that they concern in education. with money that they got, it’s really small if we compared with public vision that they will be got.
and the last one consideration, all "ulama" on this planet have given fatwa that cigarette is " haram " (exception ulama at indonesia, they said it makruh)
so, with all consideration, i need your participation to encourage my maneuver.
there is a scholar need just student with "ipk" below 3. usually scholarship’s requirement always have written by 3, so i thought this is a big change. but the problem is, dateline is tomorrow, and i prepare nothing from requirement list, this not my foul, the publication from head office was late. i hope the time to collect all requirement is extended.
today is like my usual day after i came head department of student prosperity (sounds cool, it isn’t?). i felt bore in my daily activity, doing same thing every day. in past, i do same actually, but it felt different because there were a lot girls that i can try to attract their "attention" hopefully one of them can be my girl (you knew what I’m talking about huh?) but know on, i think girl only resist our dream. without something link between me and her that we call marriage, she just become troubles.
but i felt something annoying when see picture of my friend (girl) with a man standing after her.did i jealous?
i going to write my first posting in English. i knew that would be a lot mistake so i really need a comment to correct my word, sentence, or grammar.
and now I’d like to write about Soeharto.
after his dead, people talk him to much i think. and for the most tragic part was news about his dead have dominated shows in tv, actually i don’t really like to watch tv, but it was annoying me, when i were changing tv’s channel, the news about him always played. the theme of news mostly same, is about his controversial, people are saying to for give his sins and the contra side said opposite. we talk about 1500 billion rupiahs here that must hold by all Indonesian, that in fact we never "fell" spend those money. for give and still continue the law process are something quiet different, ok we give apology, but where the money go is, still continue to find out.
one thing, on the ways soeharto’s body carry out, there were many people crowded the street, it seems the people really respect to him, but i think, people came just because they would to see the crowd, how big it is, not fully respect to him.
soeharto…
for "sense of humanity" and my lack of information about your will in past, i didn’t have dis likeness to you..
sejak gw ikut kajian, gw tersadarkan sesuatu bahwa kita tidak boleh menerjemahkan hadits apalagi al-quran berdasarkam pemahaman kita doang, kita harus melihat pemahaman suatu hadits dan al-quran dari sudut pandang rosulullah atau tabi’in atau tabiut tabi’in atau para ulama, itu pun yang bener-bener ulama.
silakan bilang gw ga gaul atau gw ga tau diri atau apalah. tapi sejak di bem teknik gw ga pernah nyoblos, trus pas ditunjuk jadi wakabid sosma pun gw ga tau siapa ketua bem-nya waktu itu. lalu pas gw dapet sms dari ketua bem ui untuk jadi kadep kesma, gw ga tau nama dan tampang ketua bem itu (serius gw) dan gw yakin kalo gw dateng ke ruang bem trus cowo pertama yang gw temui disana ngaku-ngaku sebagai ketua bem, gw pasti percaya.
hal ini terjadi karena,
pertama, demokrasi adalah bukan sistem islam.
kedua, bagaimana mungkin suara orang yang selalu menghadiri kandidat ketua bem dan tau tentang tindak tanduk mereka disamakan dengan orang yang kerjanya cuma kuliah pulang-kuliah pulang doang yang tiba-tiba di lewat di lobi dan di suruh milih orang mana yang akan membawa arah bem ui selanjutnya?
gw tau sekarang gw berada di dalem sistem yang bertentangan dengan idealisme gw, tapi setidaknya gw masuk kedalam sistem ini tanpa gw minta dan tanpa sistem yang lebih buruk lagi yaitu…voting
